Okay, now things are really feeling weird. I'm not even sure what it is. I am going to try to talk to someone other than the two friends I am now, try and make things slightly better, but it is hard to trust someone enough to actually talk to them. Hopefully things will get better, but even now, when I'm not feeling terribly bad, I still feel like something is really wrong, I feel like I want to scream or cause pain or something, I guess I'm also slightly scared of anything happening to me or me doing something really wrong, but exams starting on Monday week, that won't help so much.