I felt really weird earlier, and I couldn't even say that I felt /10 about something then I had to think whether to say the number between 7 and 9 or just write 7 or 9. In the end I wrote 9 because I decided that writing between makes it look like i have problems and 7 was too low. I think I am in a really bad place at the moment.
I think I should just give up.